It’s Wednesday and I’m having a brief moment to collect my thoughts and prepare mentally for the next many days I have ahead of me. Tonight we have the premiere of The House of Yes. I need to prepare a lot for this performance, for i have a lot in my mind at the moment. Lucky i have the day of from work today, so I’ve been able to sleep a bit longer and just relax at home.
First i need to prepare for the shows that’s coming up. I will be going straight from work and straight to the theater for the show. So i will have no time in between to do shopping, cooking or just relaxing. I I’ve spend this day to by small things like, fruit, pasta and rice etc, so i have something to eat when i get home late in the evenings. It can be hard to go without food after a day from 08:30 till 22-23:00 in the evening. Long days, but worth it all.
As a part of my “warm up” just before the show, one of the methods I use is music therapy. To but it short, even if i had had a shitty day, feeling sad, a lot of my mind etc. I put on my headphones and I literally blast the crap away. I run the music on full power and totally disregarding that it might actually hurt my hearing. I do this for at least 5 minutes or sometimes if I need to do a physical warm up, then I’ll let it run for about 15 to 20 minutes. The music is often very hard and powerful music with a lot of energy (i sometimes uses my brothers music from the metal band The Interbeing) The music allows me to relax and clear my head, forget about everything and everyone. Forget about the thoughts running in my head, the people i miss, the people i hate and even let’s me forget about myself. It’s just me and the music. I don’t listen to the lyrics but more the power of the music. I’m recharging my batteries so to speak. Used this method sense 2005 and it works for me.
Well i guess this I why i also write this blog, so I don’t need a shrink… I have a lot of things I need to get blasted out of my head, if I’m needed to be someone else on stage. Gf and I ended the relationship two weeks ago, and I’ve been shattered into pieces. I’m trying to piece back together my mind, and am yet to be successful. I can’t deny that I don’t miss her and think about her, but I’m also aware that it might be for the best for both of us. She started at the School in Oslo, and got to like it so much, that the choice of moving back to Denmark and live here fell apart… I understand that she don’t wanna change school. I understand that it’s to hard that I’m not around when needed. I understand that she might not even want to come to DK when school is finished. I understand that it is for the the best, when we’re so far apart, and the future is a mist. But I’m yet to understand that’s it over after almost 4 years with two years living together. Can’t say i don’t miss her or the two guinea pigs. It ain’t easy, but i suppose it’s not supposed to be.
Attached pictures are shot by Iven Gilmore and are from the house of Yes.